Tuesday, August 12, 2008

I'm all outta time...

Well it is happening...and I can not stop it. Sometimes I just wish I would say things a little quicker....I guess I thought it would never happen. That the stars would not a line, that someone would not dots the i's and cross the t's. But they did...and they did. What am I talking about....well moving. And not just moving to another part of the same city...moving to a different country. I am petrified....

I didn't think that I would be. I think that is the problem. I have no real ties here to the city. Once my father passed away it really has not been the same. I have been in a cloud of "I don't care" since then. So moving seemed like a perfect thing to do when my DH was offered the job. Great money, job security (well as much as anyone can offer these days)...possibilities for him are endless...which I am happy for. He deserves this, he's worked hard for all of us to get where he is....many midnight backaches, and stress headaches tell me so.

While all seems to be mapped out for him and his future...things feel like again, they are in limbo for me, and well the kids. I feel like it is a lot of hurry up and waiting...then stalling and stagnating....I am getting tired of trying to find myself and what I need to do. Because I do not feel like I am finding my path....heck maybe this is it and I do not know it. That this is where I need to go to start fresh again.

Hopefully this is what they have planned for me...and that it will all fall into place soon....